A Year of Spiritual Thinking from
Practicing Terraphilia
by Susan J. Tweit
I am embarking on an experiment that
both terrifies me and exhilarates me: I am beginning a Year of Spiritual
Thinking. For the next year, I am going to give myself permission to radically
shift my perspective and experience everything—my writing, my re-storying work,
my daily routine and relationships, my routines and rituals and habits; my
house and even my truck, all of my experiences, and the world around me—through
a primarily spiritual lens.
This year of spiritual thinking is
most determinedly not religious. The word spiritual, says my dictionary,
means “relating to or affecting the human spirit or soul as opposed to material
or physical things.” It is deeply rooted in that connection to the ephemeral
and essential, arising from the Latin spiritus, which means both “breath”
and “spirit,” and itself comes from the verb spirare, “to breathe.” So to
consider the spiritual is to consider the mystery of our essential selves, and
also the way we inspire the formless, colorless, odorless gas—oxygen—we require
to live.
In this year of spiritual thinking, I
hope to explore the essence of breath and spirit, both of which are basically
inexpressible in words, and the wisdom gained from that essence.
My main intent here is to shift the
balance of my life from striving to a deeper level of being in love with this
world and we who share the planet.
By striving I mean attempting to
achieve something, whether that is some kind of goal in my writing or an award
for one of my books, or a review in a particular place, a certain level of
income, writing an article for a particularly prestigious journal—that kind of
outward focused striving for power, recognition, money, or material things.
My aim in taking this year of
spiritual retreat at home within ordinary life is to simply shift my focus from
striving, as I have done all of my adult life, to reflecting, to considering
what this life means, and sharing that wisdom, whatever it may be. Hard-earned
as it may be, and in my case, it usually is hard-earned because I tend to learn
by smacking my forehead into some obstacle, not by thinking about it.
From Striving to Engaging in
Relationship with the Living World
I simply want to change the tenor of
my life from the years of working toward something—“some thing”—material or
career-focused or whatever, to being. To taking part of this life in a deeper
and richer way, to being engaged in this existence in a deeper and richer way,
to practicing my terraphilia* not for something, but to be part of something.
To be in relationship, to deepen my
relationship with this living world and we who share the planet in a way that I
am most concerned with the richness of relationship, not richness in the
material or social or cultural sense.
I have no program or framework for the
year ahead. I am not going to study with a particular teacher. I have no goals
or expectations in mind. I am not going to go anywhere or attempt to “escape” my
ordinary life in order to find enlightenment. I want to learn what I can learn
through the minutia and wonder of everyday life.
There is a Buddhist saying that the
fastest way to enlightenment is not through retreating to some sacred
community, but by living our everyday lives. Nor does reaching enlightenment
change our lives, only how we live them. The other Buddhist saying that comes
to mind is from mindfulness meditation teacher Jack Kornfield, “After the
ecstasy, the laundry.”
Recognizing the Sacred in Everyday
Life
I want to shift the moments that
comprise my life to the spiritual. To, for instance, make my morning breakfast
cereal in a more mindful way, to take time to thank the oats, the blue corn
ground into meal, and the flax. The grapevines that grew the fruits dried into
raisins, the blueberry bushes that flowered and were pollinated to swell into
blueberries. The clean water the cereal soaks in, the cinnamon trees whose bark
produced the cinnamon, the ginger root dried and ground into ginger.
I want to remember to be part of this
life in its most quotidian moments in a way that I see and value the richness
and the spiritual depth and the connection to all others with whom we share
this planet. That’s what this year of spiritual thinking is all about.
I have no expectation of how it will
go or what I will learn. To have expectations is to doom any possibility of
change and transformation. Because to have expectations is to already have made
a box to fit into. And that negates the idea of reaching within and without and
learning more deeply how I belong in this world and how I can love this world.
And that combination of terror and
exhilaration? It comes from, as the philosopher L.A. Paul writes in her book Transformative
Experience, “[Knowing] that undergoing the experience will change what it
is like for [me] to live [my] life, and perhaps even change what it is like to
be [me], deeply and fundamentally.” link to L.A. Paul’s book: https://academic.oup.com/book/7934
We can’t and don’t know how life will
transform us. But we can learn from it.
*Terraphilia: n. The intrinsic
affection for and connection to the earth and the planet’s web of lives we all carry in our
cells. When we don’t
tend this bond, we become lonely, hungry for something we often cannot
articulate; we are less than whole. My
late husband and I borrowed and re-defined the word to explain what motivated
our work, his abstract sculpture bringing local rocks into our everyday lives
as “ambassadors of the earth,” and my writing that explores the bond between
humans and the rest of this living earth.
My
weekly newsletter, Practicing Terraphilia aims to help us explore, grow and
strengthen a reciprocal relationship with this numinous planet. We’ll consider whether our daily actions and
behaviors are aligned with loving this earth and our fellow passengers on the
planet. We’ll look at
ways to be the best humans we can be, whatever the challenges and times. And
ways to love ourselves—just as we are—in the doing.
Blessings!
Susan
Links:
Practicing
Terraphilia: https://practicingterraphilia.substack.com/ (If you have trouble signing up, email me with your name and email, and I’ll add you to the list manually. info@susanjtweit.com)
Bless
the Birds: https://bookshop.org/p/books/bless-the-birds-living-with-love-in-a-time-of-dying-susan-j-tweit/14982089?ean=9781647420369
Walking
Nature Home: https://utpress.utexas.edu/9781477309346/walking-nature-home/
My
other books on my website: http://susanjtweit.com/books/