When I thought of writing about the recent happening in the United States, I wanted time to think from where I was coming on it and what I believed I knew. I never imagined I would begin with how I am feeling right now where it comes to my country and our government. Then I had a dream last night and decided that was where to begin.
The dream was me standing on a kind of sidewalk with a concrete fence between it and what appeared to be the ocean. People were all excited, jubilant even with their eagerness to board a boat. I think it was supposed to be a ship but didn't appear quite that large to me, I watched as the boat took off.
When it was off, away from the dock, and still the people on board seemed gay and then it was apparent something went wrong with that ship and I saw it break in half, soon to sink into the water. People on the shore were horrified and tried to save the people who were drowning. They got some, but I looked in the water and those joyful people were under the water, clearly dead. End of dream.
When I woke, I wondered what that might mean in a dream as I never have fortunetelling dreams. I have a dream dictionary and found this as one possible part. "To dream that a ship has crashed or sunk suggests that you are feeling emotionally out of control. You are expressing some fear or uncertainly within your emotional state. You are afraid of losing something close to you because of certain difficulties."
I think this does represent how I feel right now where it comes to not just my country, but the world. I don't write about it here because I want to be as positive as I can. My theory has been-- what good does it do to speak negatively unless you can do something about the problem. Well, I can't change what seems to me that has gone wrong.
On the other hand, as an old woman, I've seen a lot of life go by. I know that something seems weird about what I am told I now must accept-- and I've been feeling that for a while. Who is it telling us what we must accept as truth?
It was in 2018, when my husband and I both left the political party to which we had belonged since we first could vote. We felt it was going the wrong direction. Still, could we join the other main party? Not really, which left us unaffiliated. A better place to be for now, but it doesn't change our great concerns for what's happening in terms of values and ethics in our world.
I am told that an open United States border, with just anyone coming through, is okay. No matter how many and from where.
I am told that when a woman wins a race, and she looks like a man, for me to see that means I am a bigot.
I am told that caring about a spiraling federal budget is stupid.
I am told that when one candidate tells a lie, it matters; but when another does, it's okay.
I am told that seeing one party get away with whatever they want to do is fine (destroying a Blackberry, paying someone to lie about the other candidate), again, just fine.
I could go on but it's irritating me just thinking about it, let alone listing it all. As for what is irritating me now, I'll share that in the next blog. Be aware, this is all political. Unfortunately now, it's not just what I see that has triggered me this time-- but how really divided we appear to be as a people for what we think is okay-- not to mention those chortling with glee at what just happened and I am wondering-- so what country do I live in?
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I'm standing by for the next salvo.
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